Journal Entry #18

     I don't know where to go or what to say.  I would have counted the days but I did not even know when it was day or night.  I was so weak that I could barely walk when my warriors rescued me.  It all seemed like a dream.  It took some time for me to realize that I was back at home.  Nami nursed me back to health and Ninja never left my side.  I don't want to be around people, I only want to be alone with Ninja.

     I can feel their thoughts pressing into me.  Why?

     I got into a fight with another community member, something came over me and I took out my anger on him.  I felt so much anger, so much pain.  Why did my mother have to go?  Why did she leave me?  Why?

     Nami says that we are to take a trip, back out to the woods from where we came, just me and her.  She said there is something deep lodged within my spirit and it is unsettling me.  Somehow a beast has been unleashed, what my mother gave birth to.  And now I'm waiting. 

     I know it's there.
     I can feel her; this beast is a part of me.
     I don't know if she wants to leave.
     Maybe I will let her stay?
     Then we can go find mother one day.
     One day mother, one day.


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